uber shyness. drunk first kisses. adventures in the R2D2 elevator. 6pm hangover breakfast at denny's.

perfect. perfect.

even if i don't really have a chance in hell at that job in indiana any more the trip was totally worth it.

I love John. He's crazy and completely random. I just love it!

Also, I'm in Hawaii for the next two weeks hanging out with Kyle. It's pretty sweet.

Lately I've been missing things that were apart of my life two and three years ago. I took them for granted and now I wish I had more time or more concrete memories of those good (and bad) times. I would trade thousands of dollars to get back to that time and relive those moments. I'm scared I'll never have anything like that again or that I again won't recognize the importance of all those little moments that made everything so sweet.

I'm going to Idaho tomorrow for my first job interview (and it's my dream job!) I've never flown alone before nor have I ever had to make connecting flights so wish me luck on all of that. I'll be back Wednesday early early morning.

I started teaching Allie how to drive and I donated $50 to Obama's campaign. My donation was also matched by someone living in Cambridge.

... I feel good about myself today.

WTF... I graduated college yesterday. I got a B.S. in Forensic Science and a B.S. in General Biology. My final GPA was not the 3.0 but I suppose a 2.83 isn't horrible considering I got two science degrees in four years and didn't get to take any fun/easy electives. It was a great day, and the days before were nice too, sad, but still nice.


I've got to unpack everything, find a "summer" job and then continue the great job search. Hopefully I'll get to go to Connecticut a lot this summer and maybe they'll get to come out here too. I just don't want to miss out on too much before I have to go work a real job.

OH and Brandi.. thanks for the congratulatory remarks, even if they were a little early ;)

Allie came up this weekend to visit. I had fun and I'm pretty sure she did too. Friday kind of sucked because I had to write a paper for Saturday morning but she went with John and Andy down to the studio while I finished and apparently there was some pretty crazy happenings in Dodds. Saturday was a whole lot of nothing and then the new Narnia at 10:10 with her an John. It was just pretty sweet and I think the older I get the more I appreciate hanging out and talking with her.

I graduate college in 5 days. 5 DAYS. wtf. 4 years and tons of money later I'll have a B.S. in Forensic Science and a B.S. in Biology. I wish I buckled down and studied more but I guess I'll just have to be happy with two B.S. majors in science with a B- average. I was worried I wasn't going to graduate because I missed a presentation in my forensics seminar but I got a B+ so I guess it all worked out ok.

Soon I'll be home saving up money and continuing the job search. I just hope I get something before I have to pay for health insurance. I really just want to be living somewhere starting the next part of my life.

... sitting in John's apartment listening to him and Andy whistle that catchy song from the car commercial. It honestly just brought tears to my eyes, as lame as that sounds.


Fuck, I don't want this to end.
I need more time.

I think I've seen 4 of my confessions pop up on the front page of grouphug this past week. Either that or people have almost identical ones.

I suck at school.

I have a presentation I need to do tomorrow at 8:30a and I just can't seem to get started.

Meh.

Filling out job applications is scary.

I still need to fine tune my resume and a majority of these applications are due within the next two weeks.

eek.

Well, here's to hopefully having a job before I graduate.

(yeah.. right)

I feel uncomfortably numb.

I felt this way after the 9/11 and now after the Virginia Tech shootings. To me neither ever happened. It's just weird.

While the shootings are very unfortunate I find them interesting and wish I could know more. Maybe that is just the forensic scientist in me.

The only thing that strike a chord with me is that the professor who was shot and killed while holding the door closed so his studesnts could escape, Liviu Librescu  was a Holocaust survivor.  It just makes me angry that he survived all of that, and was then killed this way.

I hate how some people think.
I hate the way I think and feel.
I hate how our country, world, and even universe works.

John and I saw via audio tonight.

I love via audio...

... not only are they amazingly fun to see, they are all really nice people.

The godzilla song was great.

I'm just so lucky I got out of lab early tonight and we decided to go like, last minute.

- 6 days/5 nights at a disney resort hotel (wednesday - monday)

- 6 day park hopper pass

- Dining plan (for each day of stay):

- one quick service meal (entree, dessert, and drink -OR- combo meal, dessert and drink)

- one table meal (appetizer, entree, dessert and drink -OR- full buffet [this inculdes character dining])

- one snack (can be a drink, ice pop, fruit, popcorn, etc.

- Round trip flight on JetBlue

All of this would be $850 a person if like, 4 people were going.

On top of that, I can get a AAA discount on the room (about $150) and various coupons to use at the park stores and such.

So what do you all think? Too much? Or should I go for and convince some people to go with me?

I started a diet yesterday and I've already lost 2 lbs. I'm hoping to lose 80 lbs by my 22nd birthday, if not more.

I decided i need to start wearing more jewelery so i ordered a $35 necklace of etsy.com for myself. I hope it comes soon.

There were trouble and connect 4 tournaments on campus tonight in which the winners received $25 gift cards to best buy. I some how managed to win the trouble one (I think the red pawns were lucky) and now I have to figure out what I want from best buy.

I'm excited about room selection and my apartment next year. Oh, and lucky me, I got number 26 in the room selection lottery.

Yeah, otherwise thing are pretty boring.

My baby turned 100,000 today!




Taking these while driving down a super icy Long Island Expressway was not such a good idea.

I also got my hair cut today

The way the moonlight is shining on everything just looks amazing; it's absolutely beautiful.

I wish I could share more of these moments with someone... anyone.

(I've been feeling a little lonely lately.)

New Years Resolution: Worry less about what happened and what's to come; just live in the moment.

(cliché, I know, but it's something I have a lot of trouble with)

I think that by December 4th I will be drowning in credit card debt.

I owe $831.26 and I have less than $300 in my bank account. I only have until the beginning of January to make that much. I think I am screwed.

What did I get myself into?

So yeah...

I slammed my finger in my room door today. Health Services didn't believe me when I told them, they were thinking it was my car door.

Yeah, it was that bad.

They had to use the heat thing to put a hole in my fingernail to relieve the pressure. I also have to go for x-rays tomorrow at 8am. Fun, fun.

... Karma definitely kicked my ass.

(I'm thinking that if I start using this more often that I might treat myself to a paid account.)

Anyways..

I have no idea what I am going to do about school. I really should double major in either forensics/chemistry, or forensics/biology but I don't know if I can do it. Even the thought of all the work is stressing me out, but I'm afraid that I will be kicking myself later on if I don't do it.
As of right now, I am farther along on the chemistry track, simply because of all the chem classes we have to take as forensics majors, but chemistry and I have a love/hate relationship going on. And, on top of that I am behind in math so I would have to find a winter session that offers calculus II or wait until summer, or get stuck in school for another year.
As for Biology, It interests me more and motivates me to get a masters degree or even a PhD but that would me that next semester I would have at least four lab/lecture classes and possibly another course on top of that, giving me 19 credits and possibly 29 hours of class a week. Also, with the bio double major I wouldn't get to take any fun forensics classes.
Ugh. I just don't know what to do, hence why I have a meeting set up with my advisor which will probably end with me crying becacuse I am so overwhelmed.

And on top of all this, my roommate is causing so much drama and just irritating me (She really is getting on my last nerve). That will require another update which I am sure all of you will find entertaining. That will definitely come soon... most likely when I get back to campus and get an other update from her.

And now I guess I am just going to go back to watching "The Scariest Places on Earth" Marathon on ABC Family while I wait for John to get off work.